Happy 27th Birthday To Me!!

Happy 27th Birthday to me!!
Time to revamp and re-evaluate.

    I'm officially past my mid twenties and am now rearing on my late 20's....on the push towards 30.  Talking with some of my friends from high school (and being the baby of the group) I find that I am nowhere where I thought I would be by 27.  In high school I thought I would have been at a certain point in my life by the age of 27 and be settled in so many different ways.  Instead...I find that I'm not.  And how is one to deal with that?
     So for my 27th Birthday....on Friday the 5th I drank up with the high school guys at Yardhouse into my birthday.  My cousin Vince and Laurie came by and got me a drink.  It was good seeing them.  But the talks with the guys was interesting as well.  Talked about which age in our 20's we liked and such.  Saturday night I met up with Steph and Sue Ann at Martini Ranch....had a drink there....then we moved on to On Broadway to meet up with Steph's friends instead of Ivy as we had planned.  On Broadway was cool.  We partied in the VIP booth with Lil Scrappy & T Pain (who were in town for the Dub car show on Sunday).  Steph's homie Anthony was on a mission to get me drunk.  The night was all good and fun all in all....except for the instead with these stupid girls in the line to the hip hop room...I was way to close to beating their asses....but yeah.  Woke up Sunday with a headache and spent Sunday in rehab in my bed.  Ha ha.  Well...Happy Birthday to me.  All the Birthday wishes from everyone was great....too bad all y'all went to Vegas.  Grrr.  But its cool.
     So yeah....I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.  A lot of soul searching and such.  For my 27th I made one resolution.  I have officially sworn off guys and dating until I get into nursing school.....and from there...if I ever get in....I'll play from ear from there if I'm gonna swear them off until I graduate.  Yenno.....after everything that has happened and developed within the last few weeks....I've had a lot to think about.  I've concluded that I've got to be selfish and make everything be all about me right now.  I need to focus on my goal and not let anything blind sight me right now.  Focus focus focus.  I have got to reach my goal....and I'm sick of San Diego and the guys here and this whole bubble that we all seem to be stuck in where everyone knows everyone and all social circles intertwine in some way.  It almost seems best to date someone out of town so that you won't have to worry about seeing them every day or putting up with the bullshit.....so that the time you do get to spend together is that much better.  But anyways....I don't give a dayumnn if Mr. Perfect falls in my lap right now and stares me in the face.....I've sworn to give up guys and dating until I get into nursing school and that is that.  Done deal.  I just want to get back to that period in my life....those months earlier this year where I was happy and dandy just kicking it with my friends and being single and free.,  So....that is my plan right now.
     I really need to get back into playing the piano though.  I need to stop working so dayumn much and come home and just play my heart out.  I need to make time for the things I used to love to do.  Sketching at Balboa Park.  Doing my photography shots all over San Diego.  Stuff like that.  That is another problem of mine.  I get so wrapped up in work that it has become my life.  I need to quit that and re-focus.  My work is stressing me out (along with other things in my life).  I'm losing weight....I'm smoking more....I just need to take a step back from it all....get down to some alone time and re-introduce myself to my artsy fartsy side.  And I need to quit talking and writing about it and truly just do it.  I know I've kept myself at home and locked in my room after work for the past how many weeks....but I need to get out and do some alone time and find myself again.
     Being my birthday and all recently....I started thinking about qualities that truly make me a Libra.  They say Libras are diplomatic, charming, romantic, sociable, and idealistic.  These features make Libras very creative and wonderful artists.  Being an artist....I've found that I don't feel things the same way that other people do.  Artists tend to feel every emotion to the extreme....enveloping themselves in it....and therefor driving their artistic creativity.  I guess that's why in my writing, my music, my drawing, and my photographs.....you can feel what I am feeling at the time because I pour my soul into my art.
     In the October issue of Glamour, they described Libras as "You're classic in beauty and style--and quietly balanced in life.  You don't chase; you attract.  Though calm and collected on the outside, you're sometimes selfish and cannot make up your mind to save your life."  I found that pretty interesting because I could see myself in that. Funny sometimes reading about how your zodiac affects who you are.  Heh.
    One thing that I have discovered about myself is something I find kinda intriguing.  The qualities about myself that made me different from the norm in high school and more of an outsider are now now qualities that people find most attractive about me now.  I have always spent my life dancing to my own beat, regardless of what other's have said.  Now in my life, I not only dance to my own beat...I create my own beat and dance to it at the same time.  I was never into the girly things like sleep overs, gossip sessions, love songs, and make-up.  I was into being outdoors, playing sports, playing video games, and such.  These qualities made me a tom-boy and not the most ideal girl.  Now...these qualities have seemed to make me more attractive, while in high school it made me "different" or "wierd".  Hmmmm.  Interesting.
    Well...anyways...that is all for now....just wanted to get all that out.  Had a long day at work today and I have a long week ahead of me. So for now...I say good night.

Comments

[Rhodell]

Too early for you to have a midlife crisis, we all go through that one way or the other. It's kinda unfair to blame boys and dating though, just balance it.

[Rhodell]

Too early for you to have a midlife crisis, we all go through that one way or the other. Don't swear us off boys though, we help too ;)

[Jun]

Hi ur a nice body, sexy and i like u, pls send ur cp no. Tnx.

[danny]

you have the look's nothing 2 worry coz in our life!!! there's a saying that u must enjoy life 2 fullest extent. so insted of thinking so many things may advise 2u enjoy what ever u have in life.>>>

[emli]

me thinks u r grateful of wat u r, beauty and all its acctriments, but lagging on self fulfilmnt but then again u compensate that by doing wat u think u like at that time..u had fun and laugh and thats the best thing. its cliche but life me think is like a wine...it gets better as it gets old and mature. :) smile for me!